How does an ant eat an elephant? One bite at a time. Big problems are composed of smaller, albeit interconnected, problems. Solving the smaller problems will have an implication on the larger problems.
"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark. In the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all, do not let the hero in your soul perish and leave only frustration for the life you deserved, but never have been able to reach. The world you desire can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."
“We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust... Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”
I went on a quick little trip to New Orleans a couple weeks ago with one of my best friends, Scarlett, her boyfriend and their baby. It was such a fun, relaxing weekend and the perfect person to be with when mom called (an hour after landing) to tell me that Grandpa Larsen had passed away. I greatly needed the escape and was okay leaving, knowing he'd go while I was gone. It was really hard to say that last goodbye and I cried the entire way to the airport, full of guilt that I was walking away as he passed and not sitting there right next to him. However, that being said, I had been there straight for almost 2 weeks at that point and I literally could NOT do it, emotionally, any longer! Not to mention there was a lot of family there...not to mention, I think mom and Uncle Harold may have pushed me in the car had I said one more time that I shouldn't go. It was nice to have that support and it was the decision that needed to happen. There were people there when he went and I had done everything I could...that is what really mattered to me. After the first evening, of crying a good portion of the flight to New Orleans, getting the phone call and crying some more, I was able to put the emotions on hold, for the most part, and enjoy my time and the 76 degree weather!
Not the greatest video quality (as it was very dark in there)...but a song everyone must hear in New Orleans!
We spent majority our time eating yummy food, listening to live jazz in little dive bars, wandering the cute streets and shops, and admiring the beautiful homes in the Garden District.
Being attacked!
Jazz Brunch
You can't say this isn't the cutest thing you've ever seen! My baby boyfriend and the little Demon that I have come to love. This is Scarlett's little guy...he LOVES me, as you can see in the video!
Scarlett and I also spent some time together a few weekends ago, in Washington, D.C. I was out there visiting friends, doing some job networking/hunting, and taking a break from things at home, the same time she and Billy were in the area. So we met up at the National Botanical Gardens, the Zoo, and a variety of dinners (figures...FOODIES!).
Spanish Tapas Restaurant...with live music
Our bread sticks that looked like joints. We are so mature.
The National Zoo - baby gorilla!
Despite looking awkward, he's still smiling, that's always a plus! :)
Not sure what's going on here? haha
Oh how I miss see Scarlett everyday of my life - stuck in our dungeon room during grad school. It's been nice to spend more time together lately! I love it! One of my two friends that gets me! She understands me and gives me the best advice and I love her to death!
"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go..."
I love Adele's most recent popular tune. I love what she says at the beginning of this clip. I think we have all felt that moment of despair when it comes to relationships. Those moments of despair are always what change us and oftentimes make us better people. I ponder on her exact words a lot! I think about people I've been in love with...how would I treat them down the road if I were to see them again. Would I be able to walk up and carry out a conversation and be cordial? Or would I turn my back and run like hell, hoping that person doesn't see me before I am able to escape? I would like to think that I could take the higher road and be a decent person. However, sometimes people leave you in rotten situation, people do terrible things to you, leaving a bad taste in your mouth and other times it may just be a more simple heartbreak. I often think about running into my ex-fiance. The way things ended left me in a pit of the most awful feelings in the world. I can't even begin to explain the despair I felt and the pain I struggled through to make myself happy. The vast amounts of weight loss, the lakes of tears that were cried, the anxiety and countless hours of lost sleep thinking about it all, not to mention the debt that was left in my name. What would I do if I saw him? I wish I could say that I would be excited to see how he is, how life has been so good to him...but it's the opposite, I feel that I would probably run. I am glad he doesn't live close. However, there are other men that I have fallen for that I do truly wish nothing but the best for! The most recent at the top of the list! Sometimes its something more simple...distance, that keeps you apart. It doesn't discount that he is still one of the most amazing, inspiring, sincere, and wonderful men I have ever met! He is one I would never run from, like my ex-fiance, and one that I would always wish the best for. I think that is where this song has most meaning lately...it will work out sooner or later with him, or I would only want to find another best person...someone else like him and wish him the very, very best in life (because he deserves it)!
I feel occasionally that I relate to Adele, when she describes the feeling of running into that person down the road and they have moved on, with kids and a beautiful wife, and she is still on her own. I am okay being independent and alone. I have listened to my friends battling the depths of a bad relationships and horrifying divorces. I would rather be single forever than to have to go through what some of my closest friends have been through. However, I think about what it's like to be in love, with someone that is wonderful...I wish I had that sometimes. Anyway, just food for thought. Enjoy the song! I love Adele and love this beautiful tune!
I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead yeah.
You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over yet.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nothing compares
no worries or cares.
Regrets and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me I beg,
I remembered you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nevermind I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me I beg,
I remembered you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
but sometimes it hurts instead
"Dont bend; dont water it down; dont try to make it logical; dont edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly."
Franz Kafka
08 March 2011
Reminds me of ME :) I hope I have little girls that will learn easily like this! ha